Sighs and bereavement
Esther died 6 months ago tomorrow. Esther if you didn’t know her had a heart of gold, I’d known her since I was 11. She passed away due to cancer. She passed away after fighting cancer for many months, and more struggles since she was younger. She was brave, beautiful, generous and always a light in the darkness. She always remembered the good in people and always wanted to bring it out. She was there for me when no one else was, when the world had fallen around my ears and eyes. She never left me.
Esther went on her gap year to the states doing work which would help others, went on anti war marches in Washington but ended coming back to London in pain. This pain later on highlighted the cancer. She fought for months, more bravely that anyone could have. I saw her, her speech fragile and broken, her cut hair which was growing back after all the chemo. She was fighting. She was going to go to uni and become a speech and language therapist. She was going to do what she could to make the world smile.
When Esther passed away I cried for a while but then remembered she would no longer be in pain. I wanted her to live more than anything but life isn’t simple. But she is now away from the pain in this world, the pain she wanted to heal. I can remember her smile when we used to watch the simpsons and lord of the rings, or something like that and she would never stop. It was beautiful. I just wish I could have seen it one more time. I wish…
I miss her every day, her ideas, her voice, her way of thought. She always had hope. I’m trying to keep going with her hope. I hope she can see me because I love her. Its so unfair she was taken away so young. But, she changed so many lives in such a beautiful way.
Lots of love to Esther’s family and friends if they see this but more to Esther, a girl who was voted the most memorable person at her 6th form prom. Esther, we will never forget you. You are always in our minds.
Leave a Reply